哭了几遍。。
像是无助的小孩。。还是我自己硬撑了太久。。
是在家里最小的关系吗?
我承认我很爱哭啦。。呵。。。
事情是需要去面对和解决。。
太大的财务问题，虽然由不得我去想。。我更加没有能力解决。。
可是。。。那种压迫感真的让我投不过气。。
就想橡皮根。。扯太久了。。。总会有断的一天。。
我明白有些事不该我去想。。就算想也未必有结果。。
可是。。我能不想吗? 可以不想吗??
有些事情。。我真的不想去管了。。。
我自问管不着。。
如果说。。没能力的事就置身于外的话。。那。。我能做些什么。。
自己的情绪管理实在太差了。。那不是做事的人该有的情绪。。
我希望自己能够成长。。。
一步一步的走出自己的路。。。

很感动。。感谢身边的人。。的关心。。
辉。。谢啦。。第一时间打给我。。
斐也有开解我噢。。
振义 “看” 了很多牢骚。。
强来看我啦。。
嗯。。看来我是没白活啦。。。哈哈。。谢啦。。各位。。

一切从心开始。。。

唉。。新的水晶手链又断了啦。。
心情又很低落了。。
我的妈啊。。。
=~

珍惜应该珍惜的；感谢应该感谢的
把握应该把握的；发现应该发现的
原谅应该原谅的；忘记应该忘记的
发泄应该发泄的；接受应该接受的

这八句都很有道理。。只是。。有多少人能做到。。
又或者你能实践到多少句呢???

Another week passed...
nothing special.. went for movie 300 with priz, keong n fai on thrusday..
it was nt as bored as i thought.. its a story about 300 heros to protect their country..
and i saw a small part of the making of this film.. almost all the background using computer..
hou geng!

oh ya.. also went to "eye on malaysia" on tuesday nite..
thought not much people will go on weekdays.. but still quite alot of ppl..
its the 1st ride.. ermm... very high... the nite view is... so so.. okok.. haha..
5 rounds.. mmmm... quite ok... haaaa.. each person rm 15... mm.. like nt worth it... haha..
anyhow.. at least i went there.. kaka..

went to matta fair today.. and book for the trip to perhentian island for june..
hahaha.. island again..
ohhhhh.. nid to keep fit liao.. hahaha.. i also lazy for half month after cny, saying going to pilates.. hahaha.. aih.. everytime oso last min change mind de lor.. ==''
hcn... lu ciak sai lar....
one more matta fair on 7-9th sept.. planning to go again.. and get a trip to bali.. hahahaha.. or bangkok.. hehe.. =)

hm.. today is already 18th of march..
this month wasnt tat good for company.. i wish to pass it fast..
and i only left two weeks time for me.. mm.. nt die.. jz some decision making.. haha.. and also hoping next month is a better month for company..
last time i promise myself tat i only left three years... and its already pass 10% of it..
mm.. still nt able to work out something.. even a tiny little things.. so upset..
i spent too much time to enjoy myself.. omg.. bcoz after cny? m.. too many excuses for myself..
who can slap me?!!!!!
hcn... work harder!!! =P

x_x

running nose.. n sorethroat.. omg..
seems like nothing much to do..
after finish things in office.. then go home already..
the stupid streamyx at office nt yet fix.. omg...
tat's how effecience is tm.. ==''
almost two weeks i cant access to internet..
i asked the customer service whether they can deduct the charges for this month..
omg omg..
x_X

Mr Derrick Big Day!

Today is Mr Derrick Tan big day.. his graduation.. at Shangri-La hotel..

Congratulation Mr Derrick Tan.. Wish u Front Road Light Light.. haha.. step step go up lar..

=)

opss..

opss.. so fast..
today already friday..
mm.. dun knw why.. this week seems like moving tooo fast..
everyday very fast.. 12pm.. 5.30pm.. 8pm... 12am..
mm... suppose to post something up.. for last sunday..
went up to genting for 988 de "thousand ppl lou sang"
jz like last year.. sok kwan won five seat for the lunch..
go there with my sis.. sok kwan, cming, n moon also.. haha..
after the lunch.. went to 1st world de casino also.. as usual.. the guard check my IC lar..
hahahaha...
n play "big small" there... hang around there bout 1hr.. for me.. no lose no win lor..
sok kwan oso.. my sis lose alittle.. n moon win bout 50.. haha..
its the 1st time i gamble there.. kaka..
after that... went bck home..
and my fren taking me to lee hom's concert...
haha.. we miss the 1st three songs.. bcoz too late there.. n going to wrong entrance..
lee hom damn leng cai arhhh.. hahaha.. almost crazy already..
very nice concert..
n then.. almost nt enuff sleep for these few days..
doesnt really bz.. bt time pass really fast...
n i almost one week dint online in office.. bcoz... of the line problem..
omg.. i had make a report at TM point for almost two days.. n i called today.. they telling me there's a technician coming today noon..
BUT!!!!!! nt even one fly fly in.. = =''
can imagine how effective they are..
very hot this few days..
mm.. i gotto take bath..
will post some pic took at genting.. but only 1 me n moon feel is nice.. hahaha..

新年前。。我的紫色水晶手链断了。。
今天。。我的紫色水晶项链也断了。。
早上。。冲好凉。。扭到颈了。。
是自己的错觉吗。。。像什么事都不如意。。
好无奈。。。好无助。。
公司又出了些状况。。这次不像之前的小问题。。
今天才发现自己一直忽略了一个很重要的事。。几乎是不应该忽视的。。
我。。。似乎又做错了什么似的。。

张悬
Scream

也不是真的不要关心 也不是真的不曾介意
可偏我也不是真的拒绝这一切
只留下自己

也不是全都不理不听 也不是真的无从继续
可每一次我都试著坚强
都成了不得已的哭泣

I’m screaming, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to be mature someday
but ‘till now it’s still in vain
I’m bearing, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to go on this path
but you said I haven’t get the jest

也不是真的不要关心 也不是真的想尽办法任性
而你懂不懂 我懂不懂 其实我心底都珍惜

也不是全都不理不听 也不是全都无从继续
可每一次我都试著靠近 都成了你看见的抗议

I’m screaming, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to be prefect someday
but ‘till now it’s still in vain

I’m bearing, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to be understood
but you said I haven’t had seen it yet
(but you said I haven’t get the point)

I’m try it out, I’ll try it out
I’m trying it out sometime
I’m trying it out someday

5th day...

Oppppsssssss... so fast.. its already 5th day larrrr...
tomorrow is "good day" to start work..
hope everything "sun sun li li" larr..
hmmm.. many things needs to prepare actually..
and my plan is fail bcoz of "SLEEP"!!!!
hope tomorrow morning i can wake up automatically lar.. coz tiz few days.. almost 2am to 3 am only sleep.. then sleep till morning 10 something..
after eat.. fall asleep again.. hahahahaha..
things i wan to do also half half only.. = =''
"sat pai"!! ><"
should i say.. "half better than nothing??" hahaha..
mm.. REST enuff enuff for this few days liao.. coz.. i eat then sleep.. after sleep then eat.. or mahjong.. omg..
n alwiz think of "tomorrow, tomorrow"or "later, later".. soooo many "tomorrow & later" but today no more tomorrow lar.. coz tomorrow gotto start work liao.. altho is half day.. hahaha..
very happy n ez this few days.. coz no phone calls.. haha..
aikss.. jz say no phone calls.. already gt ppl call in.. "pai mia" arhhh..
but later still gonna meets my frens.. at my house.. hahaa.. go dinner then mahjong.. hahaha..
Dint manage to make any changes during this holiday... mmmm... but anyhow.. i will try after tiz cny.. ^^ i still wanna enjoy for 10 more days.. hahahahaahahaha..
wish me luck!

恭喜发财!!! 恭喜发财!!!
今天是大年初一啦。。。开始做猪的第二天。。哈哈。。
真的很快变成猪了。。
早上醒来。。已经快十点了。。
和姐姐玩玩麻将。。爸就叫吃了。。
吃完。。又赌钱了。。
家里又有零食啦。。汽水啦。。
一面吃。。一面赌。。
哇。。。哇。。
总之，是不会有饿的感觉啦。。哈哈。。
还可以睡午觉。。。
哈哈。。说着说着。。我又打瞌睡了。。

在这里祝大家。。
新年快乐。。恭喜发财。。
步步高升。。身体健康。。
出入平安。。事事如意。。
青春美丽。。大吉大利。。

金猪保佑你噢。。。。。

情人节又来啦。。。
祝有情人的情人节快乐。。没有情人的也一样快乐。。

爱神丘比特迟早会找你了。。。。。 =)
嗯。。昨天收到一束花。。可是没有写上名字。。。
嗯。。还是要说声"谢谢啦。。无名氏先生/小姐。。"
祝你情人节快乐。。

迷途的小猪

唉。。心情很不好。。
提不起劲儿工作。。是快新年的关系吗。。
还是最近太多事发生了。。
理论上。。。应该不难克服。。
只是。。自己越来越懒去处理。。应付某些人，事与物。。
我想。。我太想放假了。。。
不是出去放假。。只是。。至少不需要太虚伪的面对着跟你生活相关的人。。。
心情也越来越重。。像呼吸不到了。。。
我想。。我的知识太有限了。。。
要重组一件已经走到一半的事。。并不容易。。。
要得到别人的肯定也是很困难。。
要接手一盘不小的生意是必须花上比人多五十或一百或两百倍的努力。。
可是。。结果不一定是你所得到的。。。
浮浮沉沉的。。
天啊。。我竟然觉得很迷惘。。

Racing with time..

比赛。。每个人。。都在和时间比赛。。

Hang Kei...

糟了。。糟了。。
这几天像在游魂似的。。。
公司的电脑当机。。。连自己的脑袋也跟着当机了。。
当了三四天了。。
惨了惨了。。

blank ko.. my brain hang again..

Feelings..

today is already 26th of Jan..
Still have three weeks.. already chinese new year... so fast...
chat with fei pin and kwei jz nw in phone..
the last time i met with kwei is 31st Dec.. almost one month..
since everyone start their life with work... boyfren.. study.. we seldom met up like last time..
hanging around in school.. shopping complex... bowling.. chit chat... mahjong in ypeng house.. cooking in skwan house.. movie... shopping...
Almost two years i start working.. n getting lesser n lesser contact with them.. everyone is bz.. bz bz bz... for study.. for work.. for their own future...
hope everyone of u is doing well and having a good life.. or at least.. happy for what u guys is doing..
really had a long time dint look for kwei.. altho we only stay in kepong.. which is opposite the main road..
i miss my study life.. secondary.. college..
many things had happen in these years... wrong or rite... happy or nt happy.. argue or nt argue.. and we have go thru these till now...
and... today.. this time... 11:47pm.. i really miss you guys... all of u..
kwei...ypeng.. meifong.. moon.. skwan.. pui sun.. chua sia lian.. (such a long time dint see u guys.. =~)

Many things had happen since the begining of jan.. family.. frens.. work.. where i really dun hav a time to think of others... and there's too many things i nid to think of.. of how am i going to do for my company... for my dad... for my family.. and of coz.. all of these also for my own..

im not dare to think of others things.. mm.. u can say i haven prepare for all these.. or i dun wan to be prepare for these.. or i dun have such mood to be in this.. or mayb i cant found someone to let me prepare in this.. im really sorry.. after read ur blog.. mayb i cant b ur fren again.. mayb i owe u too much.. wat i can say to u.. is still thanks n sorry.. im such a selfish person.. plz.. forgive me.. im such a slow person.. n i really hope u can happy alwiz.. or.. i should keep myself away from u.. if u wish to..

mmm... suddenly dun knw wat to say anymore.. =

anyhow.. to all my frens.. i miss u all.. and take care!!

Life goes on... Forget what u shouldnt remember.. Remember what u shouldnt forget...

Love u guys..