看了你的部落格。。
心情变得不知所措。。
那天你对我说的话。。也让我心情很低落。。
我想这一切都变成过去了吧。。
对你。。我有感谢与愧疚。。因为是我把这一切结束的。。
感谢你的疼与爱。。
这是唯一我能说的。。
我不想任何人为我浪费时间。。我真的不值得的。。
对不起。。
我真的不后悔和你一起的日子。。但。。我不想它成为你未来的绊脚石。。
我知道你也会祝福我。。对吗?

昨晚和双月聊了近两小时。。。
她说。。。要果断。。
嗯。。。
我想了很久。。。
要怎样果断呢??
嗯。。。
嗯。。。

pheww.. already 10:30pm lar..
suppose to take bath after coming back..
but.. read read blog.. see see magazine.. listen song.. haha.. aledi late..
mmm.. quite suprise when saw the miss call from our ms chua.. haha.. quite a long time she dint call me.. erm.. mayb last time oso dint call.. but use to yam cha sometimes.. but nw bcome less n less.. dint chat too long jz nw.. coz she with her boy boy..
mm.. should b heard of something from fpin lor.. haha..
thx for ur concern lar.. its really hard to tell u guys at the 1st moment when im having these problem.. altho the problem nt yet solve.. bt.. thanks alot..
i know im not alone..
yam cha someother day when u guys free.. k? take care..

mmm.. found out i've forgot something during tiz few weeks..
my fren were to complain that i toking half way.. and dissapear myself..
haha.. erm.. quite suprise looking this msg tiz morning..
anyhow.. im nt dissapear myself.. jz tat i dun have enuff time to meet up with u guys.. and telling how lovely my stituation nw.. and also.. dun wish to say too much things that making u guys worry..
feel warm when u drop me a msg in msn saying u hear bout me.. and alwiz there to giv me a hand and share my problems.. thx for that.. or else.. when im crazy.. u guys jz go tanjung rambutan to visit me.. ok?? hahaha..
but i promise u guys wont b going there..
or mayb my blog is too horrible.. haha..
stress bout work.. too much to think.. its bout money..
things bcome cruel when its come to money issue..
everyone looking for money.. everyone wish to hav more n more money..
there's a sentence.. 钱不是万能，但没钱就万万不能 "money is nt everything.. bt if no money.. everything is nt a thing".. hahahaha.. did i explain it well..???
action is power.. i 10x10% agree bout tiz..
but.. if u act without think... is tat still a power??
but.. if u think too much b4 act.. the action will b slow down.. is tat still consider a power also?
but... how u going to think fast n act fast..
hahaha.. tat's my problem..
mm.. for u.. there's many things for u to explore for ur future.. i dun wish to see u living in the memory.. i wish u to b happy.. i knw u wish to see me so too..
lastly... thanks guys..thx.

今天是十五。。早上七点就醒来了。。
嗯。。刚刚知道一个消息。。很沮丧的。。又是个坏消息。。
我。。头很痛。。是早上嚼太多口香糖的关系。。还是什么。。
原本以为挨过了三月。。四月会好一些。。原来。。这只是个开始。。
我明白一间公司不容易倒。。但明显的。。公司的财务问题会让人崩溃。。。
两年前的今天。。没有人去照顾这公司以后的路。。没有人去了解整间公司该有的系统。。没有人预料到公司财务的危机。。没有人料到今天公司是怎样的走下坡。。
我不知道爸是怎样去面对过去的种种。。我很佩服他的毅力。。
我知道我身边有人在支持着我。。只是。。你们都很难谅解到我真正的处境。。
那。。不是说去做。。去改就能完成的。。需要一段时间。。还需要一点运气。。也需要很大的勇气和自信。。
我。。。头很大。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
很讨厌自己。。怎么那么的爱哭啊。。
天啊。。你的泪线就那么的活跃吗???

哭了几遍。。
像是无助的小孩。。还是我自己硬撑了太久。。
是在家里最小的关系吗?
我承认我很爱哭啦。。呵。。。
事情是需要去面对和解决。。
太大的财务问题，虽然由不得我去想。。我更加没有能力解决。。
可是。。。那种压迫感真的让我投不过气。。
就想橡皮根。。扯太久了。。。总会有断的一天。。
我明白有些事不该我去想。。就算想也未必有结果。。
可是。。我能不想吗? 可以不想吗??
有些事情。。我真的不想去管了。。。
我自问管不着。。
如果说。。没能力的事就置身于外的话。。那。。我能做些什么。。
自己的情绪管理实在太差了。。那不是做事的人该有的情绪。。
我希望自己能够成长。。。
一步一步的走出自己的路。。。

很感动。。感谢身边的人。。的关心。。
辉。。谢啦。。第一时间打给我。。
斐也有开解我噢。。
振义 “看” 了很多牢骚。。
强来看我啦。。
嗯。。看来我是没白活啦。。。哈哈。。谢啦。。各位。。

一切从心开始。。。

唉。。新的水晶手链又断了啦。。
心情又很低落了。。
我的妈啊。。。
=~

珍惜应该珍惜的；感谢应该感谢的
把握应该把握的；发现应该发现的
原谅应该原谅的；忘记应该忘记的
发泄应该发泄的；接受应该接受的

这八句都很有道理。。只是。。有多少人能做到。。
又或者你能实践到多少句呢???

Another week passed...
nothing special.. went for movie 300 with priz, keong n fai on thrusday..
it was nt as bored as i thought.. its a story about 300 heros to protect their country..
and i saw a small part of the making of this film.. almost all the background using computer..
hou geng!

oh ya.. also went to "eye on malaysia" on tuesday nite..
thought not much people will go on weekdays.. but still quite alot of ppl..
its the 1st ride.. ermm... very high... the nite view is... so so.. okok.. haha..
5 rounds.. mmmm... quite ok... haaaa.. each person rm 15... mm.. like nt worth it... haha..
anyhow.. at least i went there.. kaka..

went to matta fair today.. and book for the trip to perhentian island for june..
hahaha.. island again..
ohhhhh.. nid to keep fit liao.. hahaha.. i also lazy for half month after cny, saying going to pilates.. hahaha.. aih.. everytime oso last min change mind de lor.. ==''
hcn... lu ciak sai lar....
one more matta fair on 7-9th sept.. planning to go again.. and get a trip to bali.. hahahaha.. or bangkok.. hehe.. =)

hm.. today is already 18th of march..
this month wasnt tat good for company.. i wish to pass it fast..
and i only left two weeks time for me.. mm.. nt die.. jz some decision making.. haha.. and also hoping next month is a better month for company..
last time i promise myself tat i only left three years... and its already pass 10% of it..
mm.. still nt able to work out something.. even a tiny little things.. so upset..
i spent too much time to enjoy myself.. omg.. bcoz after cny? m.. too many excuses for myself..
who can slap me?!!!!!
hcn... work harder!!! =P

x_x

running nose.. n sorethroat.. omg..
seems like nothing much to do..
after finish things in office.. then go home already..
the stupid streamyx at office nt yet fix.. omg...
tat's how effecience is tm.. ==''
almost two weeks i cant access to internet..
i asked the customer service whether they can deduct the charges for this month..
omg omg..
x_X

Mr Derrick Big Day!

Today is Mr Derrick Tan big day.. his graduation.. at Shangri-La hotel..

Congratulation Mr Derrick Tan.. Wish u Front Road Light Light.. haha.. step step go up lar..

=)

opss..

opss.. so fast..
today already friday..
mm.. dun knw why.. this week seems like moving tooo fast..
everyday very fast.. 12pm.. 5.30pm.. 8pm... 12am..
mm... suppose to post something up.. for last sunday..
went up to genting for 988 de "thousand ppl lou sang"
jz like last year.. sok kwan won five seat for the lunch..
go there with my sis.. sok kwan, cming, n moon also.. haha..
after the lunch.. went to 1st world de casino also.. as usual.. the guard check my IC lar..
hahahaha...
n play "big small" there... hang around there bout 1hr.. for me.. no lose no win lor..
sok kwan oso.. my sis lose alittle.. n moon win bout 50.. haha..
its the 1st time i gamble there.. kaka..
after that... went bck home..
and my fren taking me to lee hom's concert...
haha.. we miss the 1st three songs.. bcoz too late there.. n going to wrong entrance..
lee hom damn leng cai arhhh.. hahaha.. almost crazy already..
very nice concert..
n then.. almost nt enuff sleep for these few days..
doesnt really bz.. bt time pass really fast...
n i almost one week dint online in office.. bcoz... of the line problem..
omg.. i had make a report at TM point for almost two days.. n i called today.. they telling me there's a technician coming today noon..
BUT!!!!!! nt even one fly fly in.. = =''
can imagine how effective they are..
very hot this few days..
mm.. i gotto take bath..
will post some pic took at genting.. but only 1 me n moon feel is nice.. hahaha..

新年前。。我的紫色水晶手链断了。。
今天。。我的紫色水晶项链也断了。。
早上。。冲好凉。。扭到颈了。。
是自己的错觉吗。。。像什么事都不如意。。
好无奈。。。好无助。。
公司又出了些状况。。这次不像之前的小问题。。
今天才发现自己一直忽略了一个很重要的事。。几乎是不应该忽视的。。
我。。。似乎又做错了什么似的。。

张悬
Scream

也不是真的不要关心 也不是真的不曾介意
可偏我也不是真的拒绝这一切
只留下自己

也不是全都不理不听 也不是真的无从继续
可每一次我都试著坚强
都成了不得已的哭泣

I’m screaming, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to be mature someday
but ‘till now it’s still in vain
I’m bearing, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to go on this path
but you said I haven’t get the jest

也不是真的不要关心 也不是真的想尽办法任性
而你懂不懂 我懂不懂 其实我心底都珍惜

也不是全都不理不听 也不是全都无从继续
可每一次我都试著靠近 都成了你看见的抗议

I’m screaming, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to be prefect someday
but ‘till now it’s still in vain

I’m bearing, I’m losing all of it
I’m trying to be understood
but you said I haven’t had seen it yet
(but you said I haven’t get the point)

I’m try it out, I’ll try it out
I’m trying it out sometime
I’m trying it out someday

5th day...

Oppppsssssss... so fast.. its already 5th day larrrr...
tomorrow is "good day" to start work..
hope everything "sun sun li li" larr..
hmmm.. many things needs to prepare actually..
and my plan is fail bcoz of "SLEEP"!!!!
hope tomorrow morning i can wake up automatically lar.. coz tiz few days.. almost 2am to 3 am only sleep.. then sleep till morning 10 something..
after eat.. fall asleep again.. hahahahaha..
things i wan to do also half half only.. = =''
"sat pai"!! ><"
should i say.. "half better than nothing??" hahaha..
mm.. REST enuff enuff for this few days liao.. coz.. i eat then sleep.. after sleep then eat.. or mahjong.. omg..
n alwiz think of "tomorrow, tomorrow"or "later, later".. soooo many "tomorrow & later" but today no more tomorrow lar.. coz tomorrow gotto start work liao.. altho is half day.. hahaha..
very happy n ez this few days.. coz no phone calls.. haha..
aikss.. jz say no phone calls.. already gt ppl call in.. "pai mia" arhhh..
but later still gonna meets my frens.. at my house.. hahaa.. go dinner then mahjong.. hahaha..
Dint manage to make any changes during this holiday... mmmm... but anyhow.. i will try after tiz cny.. ^^ i still wanna enjoy for 10 more days.. hahahahaahahaha..
wish me luck!

恭喜发财!!! 恭喜发财!!!
今天是大年初一啦。。。开始做猪的第二天。。哈哈。。
真的很快变成猪了。。
早上醒来。。已经快十点了。。
和姐姐玩玩麻将。。爸就叫吃了。。
吃完。。又赌钱了。。
家里又有零食啦。。汽水啦。。
一面吃。。一面赌。。
哇。。。哇。。
总之，是不会有饿的感觉啦。。哈哈。。
还可以睡午觉。。。
哈哈。。说着说着。。我又打瞌睡了。。

在这里祝大家。。
新年快乐。。恭喜发财。。
步步高升。。身体健康。。
出入平安。。事事如意。。
青春美丽。。大吉大利。。

金猪保佑你噢。。。。。

情人节又来啦。。。
祝有情人的情人节快乐。。没有情人的也一样快乐。。

爱神丘比特迟早会找你了。。。。。 =)
嗯。。昨天收到一束花。。可是没有写上名字。。。
嗯。。还是要说声"谢谢啦。。无名氏先生/小姐。。"
祝你情人节快乐。。

迷途的小猪

唉。。心情很不好。。
提不起劲儿工作。。是快新年的关系吗。。
还是最近太多事发生了。。
理论上。。。应该不难克服。。
只是。。自己越来越懒去处理。。应付某些人，事与物。。
我想。。我太想放假了。。。
不是出去放假。。只是。。至少不需要太虚伪的面对着跟你生活相关的人。。。
心情也越来越重。。像呼吸不到了。。。
我想。。我的知识太有限了。。。
要重组一件已经走到一半的事。。并不容易。。。
要得到别人的肯定也是很困难。。
要接手一盘不小的生意是必须花上比人多五十或一百或两百倍的努力。。
可是。。结果不一定是你所得到的。。。
浮浮沉沉的。。
天啊。。我竟然觉得很迷惘。。